The story of how I became a BonJovi fan starts off in 1988, I was 11 years old, I had just lost my dad and was dying inside because I missed him so much and wanted to be with him. I tried to kill myself to be with him I didn't want to go on. I took a bottle of pills, asthma pills, which only made me throw up and have my heart pound out of my chest. Everyone was sleeping and I just stood up on bunkbed thinking of how to end my life. Since our room was next to the kitchen I decided to get a knife and slit my wrist, I didn't like pain but I really didn't know how to end my life. I was only 11 what did I know. Anyway as I was climbing down I slipped and knocked down my sisters red radio, it turned on the the song playing was "Never Say Goobye". I just sat there hearing the chours and cried so hard. It felt like someone was holding me and I could just let go.
I stood up the whole night trying to find the song again and who had sang it, I spent two weeks
listening to the radio and eveytime I caught some of the song. On a Sunday I was listening to the Top 40 countdown on Z100 in New York, I knew I was going to hear it and I did only half of it, they also they played "Wanted Dead or Alive", I knew it was the same band I don't know how but I knew. When they mention Bon Jovi from New Jersey I knew it was them. I started going to the store and buying the metal magazines and finding out all I could about the band. I could not afford to buy the album or tape so I recorded what I could off the radio. This album started it all for me.
Then "Living on A Prayer" came out and I just couldn't believe it, they had did it again, I was trying to figure out what to do with myself I was struggling in school and struggling at home. One day while switching channels I stopped at MTV and they were giving the video. Richie had my heart the way he played the guitar, the way he looked. I wanted to runaway and marry him but I knew I had to wait until I was older. So like the song say "we got to hold on to what we got, it doesn't make a difference it we make it or not". I was going to meet them. My room was posted with Bon Jovi pictures I was always listening to the radio to hear them and when I did, it was like they were their with me. I felt like they were writing the songs of my life, I couldn't believe this band was real and I wanted to see them live and wanted to talk them for saving me. I have a story for most of their songs and now I will post it hear because I want them to know how they have affected my life.
